Tuesday, May 15, 2012

You Should Forgive Me Because of Reasons

Ummm...hi there.

Hey guise.

I bet you're, uh, kind of mad at me. Because my last post was two months ago and it promised (after my month long break from posting) that I'd post more often.

So I guess I kind of lied.

Needless to say, that life has kind of been hectic lately.

I mean, since I talked to you last I started work. That's a whole lot of fun. I work at Winnie the Pooh and Fantasmic! I love it. Sadly, however, I was Seasonal so I haven't worked in a month. Luckily, though, I go back on Sunday. I missed it lots.

School is over this week, which is really scary. Right now, I've finished all but one of my finals (which isn't until Thursday) and I'm kind of freaking out because I keep thinking that 2 years ago I was graduating high school and in 2 years I'll be graduating college.

It's trippy.

On Saturday I'm moving to an apartment off campus, which is also really frightening because that means I'm, like, facing the real world of rent and cooking food and stuff. That scares me like no other.

Is this what growing up is like?

One minute you're sitting in your high school Econ class, going home to a cooked meal, and laundry done for you. And the next minute you're working 2 jobs, taking 24 units in college and paying rent? It's like we're kids and as soon as we blink, bam, we're adults with real lives.

It's not cool.

Words can't describe how much I wish I could go home this summer. True, I get to stay here and work at Disneyland. But there's just something about being able to go home and do nothing for three whole months. To be close to all of my friends and family and not have a care in the world.

And yet here I am. I'm not complaining. Just commenting.

I don't like growing up.

There's still no news of a boy in any part of my future. It took me up until a few weeks ago, but I finally gave up the boy that I've liked for quite some time. There truly was nothing real between us and I just couldn't bear my heart the pain of trying for naught any more.

It's sad because I'm at the age where I'm just about officially the only person I know who doesn't have a significant other. And it really sucks because then there's nights like tonight, where all my friends are with their people...and I'm left writing this blog post because I literally have nothing else to do.

That sucks. It sucks a lot.

Maybe. Maybe some point in the future.

Maybe not.

We'll just have to wait and see I guess. Just wait and see what comes with the future.

In other news...well, there really is no other news.

Still going to Scotland next Spring. In fact, I bought my plane ticket already.

Still loving my sorority.

Still living life as its thrown at me. A day at a time, I suppose. My amount of writing creatively is minimal, but hopefully I can bust something out this summer. This last semester was the final one of my GE's so now all I have left are Creative Writing and History courses.

So things should be getting a bit more creative around here. Who knows?

The fact that I'm writing this is a miracle.

Anyways, it's 11PM. I've been up since 7AM. I should probably be going to bed at some point in time soon.

Until we meet again.


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