So Called Life

It's official.

I'm done.

Done with community college.

Finished with 43 credits.

And I'm pretty sure I have straight A's.

This year went by very quickly. At times, it seems to have dragged on, but when I think about this time last year--going to Disneyland, prom, graduation, getting a job...it seems like it was just yesterday.

A year ago today, I thought I was going to school in San Francisco.

In two weeks from today, it switched to being a school in my own state.

Less than a month later, I was condemned to my home town community college.

Back then, the term community college made me want to barf. It wasn't for me. I still don't believe it is. But I went.

I remember my first day as if it had just happened a few nights ago. Terrorized during my morning classes. Going to French at 7PM and crying the entire way home, wanting to overturn my car on the expressway because I couldn't deal with this fate.

It's pathetic. But that was my life back then.

Things turned around, as you can tell. I dealt with everything a lot better after that night. Community college or not, I was going to get my life back on track.

Everything has passed so quickly since then. First semester was over in a flash. Second semester went by even faster. Unbelievably quick.

And now I'm done, and ready to move in just three short months.

Sometimes it doesn't seem like this life is real.

Do you ever get that feeling, dear Reader?

Some days, you wake up from this blur and it almost stops your heart to think "This is me. This is my life. I've been living it all these years. And look at all these details."

It's my belief that many of us just gloss over many things. Stuck in our ruts of a day, we fail to pay attention to most anything. Life passes quickly because of this.

But when we wake up, it's like a brand new start on life. Noticing the details is both frightening and humbling.

And now I'm rambling just a bit.

My point of this whole blur of a topic is simply to state that this is me. This is my so-called life. So terrifying and terrible one moment, and so proud to have it the next.

Life goes by quickly.

I'm not the girl I was a year ago.

And I'm all right with that.

--Jessica